Concatenate the string
A syntax that's never meant anything
Our language not enough for us to keep
From feeling anything

Void silhouettes wouldn't try
To position their forms toward the light
Mired and disfigured, we preferred the fantasy
To what we were each really like

A dialogue, a paper due
(an awkward placement)
Were forced to see something you shouldn't have
A quiet empty train, you knew you never said something you wouldn't have
When time was up you looked it through
Asked to have learned something you couldn't have

(you heard the sound, the crowd, and everyone was there
Behind the door, they waited for you
Hushed, the flash, the light, "surprise!"
By yourself again
You held the last regret you're ever gonna)

Slow our bones will calcify
A giant flash of light
A stroke of midnight

Maybe it's finally time to do all you wanted to
(I don't mind)
Your nighrtmares consistently coming true
(then again, again, again)

Then, remember the time we spent
Remember together in stride and step
The weights overhead felt like nothing
(remember the incident)
The faint, the fall, the scan, could be nothing
(nothing we could do)
(would be lovely to see you again)
I couldn't make it function
(I couldn't get it open)

Wait with me
Almost done
Everyone will leave you
Even if you stay

Always been a fix, there had always been a way
Do you still deny whom you've been lying to?
Didn't know a thing we could say
(we said nothing)
Stuck with the choice of never trying to





Clench the hand, the glass, the sand
We said we'd do everything different
We couldn't stop bringing up when this all would end
We couldn't still pretend
(our weights were back again)
(the memory will fade)
We know better by now
(remember amassing ambivalence?)
A specious reason
(remember the passing of time, was it wasted?)
Still comforting to believe

Then, again, a photo of friends
A message I hadn't deleted yet
An answer I hadn't conceded yet
(tell us the one where we get better)
An accident, hasn't stopped bleeding yet
(tell us the one where you're the center)
Just keep it secret

All that I remember out of order
(bury it, bury it deeper yet,
Do you think that your version is accurate?
A recollection you don't even comprehend)

Though we wished it,
There was never permanence in us

Don't blame yourself
(don't worry about me)
It was no one's fault
(let your conscience free)
We could not help doing it over
Doing it again

When everyone surrounded you,
And they smiled and they spoke
You craved a chance to quietly withdraw

Now you know the quiet all the time
Crave to escape the silence, silence all your thoughts

All this time we never knew

Trapped our attention, what was keeping us apart
(forgive me)
Neglecting what was keeping us together
Tethered to obsessions that never mattered from the start
And never knowing any better

Hoped in the end it would matter what we said
But meaning only matters if you mean it
The last thing we said sounded sadder in my head
Did you mean it?